I’m in a bit of a daze right now and don’t what to do. I feel like I don’t want to stay home and just “think”. I feel like I want to go back to work. I want to apply for an HR job @ my current place of work. I just want to be happy…but at the same time, I have to take care of myself.
What to do? Am I thinking of doing too much too soon?
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Ms. Flow, I can imagine that everything feels like it's coming at you incredibly fast right now. I think you should certainly keep looking toward the future - make plans to do and work at and be where you love! But also, talk to your physician and your family/loved ones about what goals - short and long term - are reasonable for you in your current situation. I'm not sure if the possible MM diagnosis has been confirmed or disproved yet; I would operate as normal until you know for sure what your new challenges look like.
You can do this Flow, and there are people who love you to hear you and help you during this difficult period. If it's too scary to talk about, feel free to contact me via the email on my site to vent in writing. I'll always listen!
Best to you and yours,
Headstrong
Thank you, Headstrong. You have been very helpful and comforting to me and I feel like I know you personally! You're right-sometimes it's difficult to not only discuss things verbally to loved ones, but it's hard seeing the sadness they are sharing with me.
I appreciate your offer, and will take you up on it
xoxo
Flo
I've spent a lot of time thinking about this and trying to come up with the best answer. I'm indecisive, so this has required LOTS of thinking. I still don't have an answer other than you should do whatever feels right to you and whatever will enable you to remain calm during this waiting period. If you try one way and it just doesn't fit right, then go for the other. I know this wasn't much help, but I don't think there is a complete right answer. Totally lame, I know.