Here’s to leaving the past where it belongs.
I’ve been so caught up with of the busyness that the holiday season brings that I forgot to acknowledge the fact that this Thursday that just passed was my blog’s 6 year anniversary!
Honestly, when I started this blog, I hadn’t the foggiest idea what I was doing or why-what I did know is that I needed an outlet of some sort. Blogging has definitely helped.
It’s so useful and beneficial to me especially. I like going back into my blog sometimes and reading what I had written in the past. Nobody wants to stumble; nobody wants to fall. And sometimes, when I read back on those times when I did stumble, it helps me appreciate that things will eventually work out the way that they are meant to.
I’ll admit-I still have trouble with that concept sometimes. Sometimes…some days…some weeks, some MONTHS are just..hard. But, when I read back about a point in time where I couldn’t even walk, and now I can do all of these things…it just helps me remember that I am truly blessed. I hope I remember to keep that in mind more often 🙂
We go to bed, we wake up, and we go about our day, not knowing that this day is our last. This is the last time I’ll hug my family. This is the last time I’ll brush my teeth. This is the last time I’ll leave this house. This is the last person I’ll kiss. I’m only 5 breaths away from my last…
Affable- I’m sure many people would say that I’m friendly and easy to talk to. I’m definitely someone that others come to when they need someone to listen to a problem. I try to give honest answers, but I also try to provide an angle that is perhaps different than the obvious angle that others may have already given.
Maintaining relatively clear skin while taking medication that actually WANTS you to have bad skin has been difficult. I’ve mentioned in a previous post my struggles as it relates to my skin. I cringe when I think back to these days:
Trust me when I say I avoided social situations when possible because I didn’t want anyone to see my skin. No amount of makeup could cover my acne…and even still, it was essentially a slippery slope. The idea of using heavy makeup while trying to heal your troubled skin just doesn’t work out.
In the past, I went the natural route and used honey and brown sugar scrubs, clay masks, etc. I have good results with those, but after a short while, it was almost as if my skin got “used to” these products and stopped working.
In recent years, I managed to maintain moderately clear skin by using brown soap and an alcohol free toner, along with cerave skin lotion. When I went to California to visit my friend in August, she showed me a bug by Paula Begoun. She essentially breaks down which products are the bad, good, the best, etc. These comparisons include makeup, makeup remover, face wash, mascara…everything under the sun. She also has her own line of skincare products. The fact that she has her own product line, but still has a book that outlines products that she and her team think are good really struck me. It’s like..ok, I have my own products, but if you don’t want to use them, check out these drugstore/department store/specialty store etc alternatives. Maybe that was the game…because I bought some products and had them shipped to my home right away so that they would be there as soon as I returned home from my trip.
The first product that I bought was Paula’s Choice Facial Toner.
After this, I was sold. My skin is amazingly smooth and even. Of course, my skin isn’t perfect. But it’s much better than it has been in a while. I rounded off my Paula’s Choice regimen with her facial mask, sunscreen, and her shine reducing lotion. My skin is extremely oily-especially on my cheeks/under my eyes where my glasses sit., so it is really necessary.
So this is how my regimen looks. I know it’s probably going to look complicated/complex, but it works for me haha. These links are accurate as of the date I wrote this post (Nov 14, 2013) and will remain accurate just as long as the internet doesn’t change *haha*
I’ve linked everything to the site/page that I bought each product-just click on the name of the product and a page will open in a new window. And yes, I bought each product with my own money (or my dad’s money haha) and used each for a number of months, so my testimony is real.
Wash Face: African Black Soap
Toner: Paula’s Choice Toner
Treatment: BHA Lotion
Moisturize: 2 drops of grapeseed oil, a drop of cerave lotion, and a dollop of Paula’s Choice sunscreen
–Then makeup-primer, foundation, Paula’s choice shine control, powder on top.
Weekly (or when I remember and have time):
Treatment: Paula’s Choice Facial mask
–*used after washing, before toning, treatment, moisturizing.
If trying out Paula’s Choice is something you’re interested in doing, here’s a link for $10 off your first purchase. Honestly…give it a try. Paula’s choice has a wonderful refund/return policy, though I’m pretty sure you won’t need it.
Here you go! http://goo.gl/pYygmv
I’m calling this post a mish mash because I’m not even exactly sure what I’m going to talk about!
First of all, let’s talk about the month of October. I’m not gonna lie-this month has been a tough one for me. It has had it’s highs and it has definitely had it’s lows.
One of the lows is the fact that my Godfather passed away. He was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease a number of years ago. He was always the one who would do the family’s taxes, and as he became more and more ill, he invited me over to his home to teach me how to take over the taxes for my family. I’m thankful for that, as he taught me things that are not only useful now, but will be very useful and helpful in the future. The funeral was difficult for me. People always say the same thing when they go to funerals an approach the casket- “It doesn’t even look like him/her”. It really didn’t look like him. I remember many years back when my Godfather had an open house at his place of work and invited my entire family. He was so full of energy and excited to have us all there. Then I think to recent years, as he began to lose that extra “pep in his step” that he always had. All this ran through my mind as I looked at him at the funeral. I walked out quickly and went to the washroom. I went into a stall and closed the door. And cried.
My knee has been another source of stress for me. I had no idea that my knee was going to get this bad so suddenly, and I had no idea that surgery would be in the cards for me sooner rather than later. I’ve started to make some great contacts at work, and I’m hoping that another position will be in my future. I’ve been seeing some great positions come up, too. I’m afraid to apply for them now because I don’t know when I’ll be able to have surgery once I actually see my specialist. It could be very soon, it could be a number of weeks-I don’t know.
Other things here and there have been difficult for me this month too. I can’t count the amount of time I’ve just spent in my room, my face buried in a pillow and wondering…why this…why now…just why. I know that everything will eventually work out the way it’s supposed to work out in the end, but I sometimes just wish that things would work out exactly the way I want them to. But…it never does, does it.
Here’s to what I hope will be a better month, full of good things, including happiness, peace of mind, and progress.
Update: it still hurts 😦