It has been just over a year since I started my role in HR. So, what’s the deal?
It has been just over a year since I started my role in HR. So, what’s the deal?
It has been two months since I started working at my new job…and time sure does fly! I’m pretty well versed in all of the tasks, though I’m still learning every day which is great. Being in this environment is so rewarding. It feels good being on a team where your presence makes a distinct difference. I’m so used to being in a role where I perform tasks similar to hundreds of other people, and the contribution that you make often gets lost. In my two months at my current job, I’ve already received 7 emails of thanks from my co-workers-2 from my colleagues, one from my immediate manager, one from a senior manager, one from a director, and 2 from senior directors (one of them being my one-up boss) . I didn’t know (or have forgotten) what it feels like when someone acknowledges the fact that you went out of your way to find a solution to the problem they’re having.
Earlier this month, I started a once a week course of IV iron which lasted 3 weeks in total. I’ve been feeling really tired and getting up in the morning was becoming increasingly difficult. I’ve been fighting through it, as after I get up, get myself ready, and prepare to get out of the door, I feel better. But I’ve taken up drinking coffee, something I’ve never gotten into before. In my previous role, I’d have likely called in sick if I felt this way. Being glued to a desk and dealing with people would simply be too difficult. Also, people rely on me in my current role. If I wasn’t there…lots could and would go wrong.
So after completing this 3 week course of iron, I waited until this past week to do bloodwork. What I found was that my hemoglobin was still low. Honestly, I didn’t need a blood test to tell me this; I could feel it.
This weekend, Greg and I went to the Ex on Friday after I finished work. We got there around 5pm, and by 8pm I was so done. We got home and were pretty much in bed and asleep by 10pm.
The next day, we woke up and were on the road to Innisfil. Greg’s parents are away on vacation so he’s watching the dogs. We got to Innisfil, went shopping, and marinated the meat we bought for the barbecue we would have for dinner. Greg went outside to water the tree/lawn, so I went to lie down on the couch and cuddle with Primo. Before I knew it, I was full out sleeping.
Later on, we had our barbecue, took a shower, then hopped into bed. It was 8:30pm! By 9:30 or so we were both out cold.
The next day (today) we went to Nandos for an early dinner then came back home. We went to bed just to lie down with the dogs…again, fell asleep for an hour.
I called my nurse and left her a message asking her to look into my bloodwork to see what can be done to raise my hemoglobin, because this tiredness is getting to me!
I’m almost two weeks into my new job, and I must say that I’m loving every moment of it! My department is comprised of many recruiters and directors and managers and such. As for me, both myself and my colleague (we are both coordinators and do the same job) report to one manager; we are his only direct reports.
This is definitely a change. I’m learning…I’m doing new things, and I’m feeling like my work is actually making a difference. Everyone is really nice. My priorities now are to try and remember everyone’s name and to become comfortable with all of the processes and procedures in place. If anyone has a question about ANYTHING, be it a request for highlighters, the replacement of a broken headset, ordering business cards, responding to emails from potential job candidates, getting a new hire ready and set up with all the system access they’ll need for when they arrive…or deleting all of their access after they’ve left…all of this falls on our shoulders. My partner has been here for 8 months and she’s an absolute wiz. She’s definitely a wealth of knowledge and definitely a Jill of all trades, so I look forward to continuing to work with and learn from her so that I too can be a “Jill of all trades”. Tomorrow I have a business lunch scheduled. Me! A business lunch! So excited/exciting.
I’ve only been in this department for a short time…but in that time I’ve learned something very huge. What I’ve learned is that I NEVER want to do what I was doing before ever again. I never thought I could work full time, but I was wrong. I just couldn’t work full time in the environment that I was previously in…and I hope to NEVER return. Hopefully after this temporary role is up, I’ll either be able to stay in the same role, or, even better, apply to and be accepted into a greater role.
But for now…so far, so good. 🙂
Let’s face it-the main topic of conversation for my blog is a topic that isn’t necessarily the happiest of topics to discuss. In spite of some of the horror stories I’ve shared, you’ll find that often times, I take a humorous approach to my stories. But why would you take a humorous approach to such a thing! This is serious! Well, there are a few answers to that. One, sometimes, some of the stories of things I’ve been through are so ludicrous that I actually find humour in them. Secondly…to me, at the end of the day, Lupus is something that I’m just going to have to deal with, and if I can’t laugh at myself sometimes…c’mon!
This is why I was happier than happy to get my hands on a copy of the book Prescription for Disaster, written by Candace Lafleur!
If you have a chronic illness or a loved one with a chronic illness, you will definitely identify with many of the topics Candace touches on. I couldn’t help but chuckle at some of her stories, as many took me back to times when I’ve went through similar things. Candace talks about being in the ward of a hospital and all the characters she has come across because of it. Screaming, complaining old lady? Yup-been there, done that! Dealing with student doctors? Hospital food? C’mon, if you’ve spent 5 minutes as an in-patient in a hospital, you’ve dealt with all of these things!
Now, what I really like about this book is the humorous approach that it takes. Yes, chronic (and acute, for that matter) illnesses are serious, they’re bad, they’re awful…yeah…we know. But if you’ve lived it and have experienced the things that come along with it, you’ll find that there is actually quite a bit of humour to be found in a lot of the situations we go through and experience. I talk a lot in my blog about doing your best to remain positive in spite of everything. To me, it’s SO important. That said, to me, this book is great for those who can find humour in some of these crazy things that happen, and also to those who perhaps have trouble looking past the negative side. This book will help you see that you’re not the only one that these crazy things happen to, and maybe if you looked at it in a different way, you might let loose a chortle which will perhaps lift your spirits a bit! 🙂
Check it out-you won’t be disappointed!
Spending a lot of time by myself these last few weeks has really got me thinking. I’ve been thinking about the future a lot. I’m really looking forward to hopefully (my goal is on or before my birthday in May) securing a proper HR position. I’ve also been thinking about cleaning up my finances and getting my own place-perhaps a condo or a condo town home (as long as shovelling is included!)
I’m going to be honest. I thought that at this point in my life I’d be a lot…farther than I am right now. I thought I’d be married by now, have at least 1 kid, etc. I know that not everything happens the way WE plan it, and God knows that I’m not one to “settle”, but I also know that my circumstances have played a role in my future.
I’ve been apprehensive about applying for full time jobs in the past. I’ll admit it-I’ve been scared. Scared that I couldn’t do it. I was afraid that something would happen with my health and I’d have to miss a whole bunch of days. I’m still scared about that. I’ve missed wok because of sinus/ear infections, c. diff, stomach aches, etc…never mind the big stuff, like..joint replacements, kidney transplant, perforated bowel, etc. But, God willing, the real MAJOR surgeries have been dealt with and I can now progress without looking back.
I love to shop-this is no secret. But I’ve decided to cut way back on my spending habits so that I can save more as well as pay my bills. This way, I can hopefully get my own place. I’ve been fantasizing about it-I’ve even started looking online at different units and different town homes…just to see what’s out there. Hmm..maybe I’ll play lotto max (the lottery) this week…
No but seriously, as I was saying above, I thought I’d be married and stuff by now, and already living in my own house or my own place with my husband. But, that’s not where I am in life right now. Maybe that’s what’s in store for me, and maybe not. But, I’m not going to be that person who is 40+ years old and still living at home with her parents. In fact, I think living by myself would be a great thing. Being independent, making sure everything is within budget, etc..these are my goals for the next few years.
I don’t know that the future will hold-I may meet my husband tomorrow. I may already know him…but I just don’t know that he’s my future husband yet. Who knows? All I know is that…I’m looking forward to making a change.
So clearly I haven’t been the most efficient blogger as of late. But rest assured-I’m fine! 🙂
I’m trying to think about what has happened in the last month.
I went to see my bone doctor to see about my bone density’s progress. I did a bone density test, then the following week I went to see the doctor for my results. Overall, by bone density has increased by 16%! This can be attributed to a few things. My menstrual period returning right after transplant, my increased calcium intake, and going to the gym a whole bunch all helped! I’m pretty pleased with the results and can’t wait to do more!
I’ve continued on my gym journey and have been enjoying it! I eat pretty well too, but I still do have my vices: mostly sweets! If I managed to cut that out as well as have a better handle on portion control…I’d be amazing right now! LOL. That said, I tried my VERY first spin class today at GoodLife-RPM. I loved it! First of all, the instructor Rachel was amazing. She came to help me with my bike and adjusted it as per her expertise of what my comfort would be. I was afraid I would even be able to make it 10 minutes in. Whenever I try to use a regular exercise bike at the gym, no matter how low the resistance, I find myself getting off and going back to the treadmill to do my usual brisk walking. But, with biking being a low impact workout, I really wanted to try it.
Now, WHY did I all of a sudden try it? My home gym is a women’s gym. While waiting for my Body Combat class to start on Saturday, one of the regulars told me about her workout routine and how it involved spinning classes. I advised her of my apprehension about taking a spin class. Since being sick, I have a lot of muscle wasting in my legs and therefore they are very weak. I was afraid that my lack of leg muscles wouldn’t be able to to last the workout. One of the things I like about group classes is that…you don’t want to quit. You’re in a group, and you want to keep up with everyone. When I work out/do cardio on my own, it is a lot “easier” for me to throw in the towel. But in a group class..I push my limits! I was afraid of having to tap out during a group spin class. The lady I was speaking to assured me that everyone is much too into their own workout to worry about what anyone else was doing. Also, she let me know that I could adjust my resistance to as high or as low as I wanted-nobody would be monitoring me. Just go at your own pace!
Since she told me that on Saturday, I was determined to take a spin class. So, this morning,. I headed to the nearest co-ed Goodlife where spin classes were being offered. Boy, even though my legs feel like rubber…I loved it! I was definitely pourrring sweat! I will definitely be doing that again. I’m just upset that I waited so long to take one!
What else is new? I’m going on vacation! On Aug 9, I’m going on vacation! First, I’m going to San Jose to visit Sarah. Then, I’m connecting back to Toronto then over to London England to visit family! I look forward to it-can’t wait! What’s funny..is that I’m kinda upset that I haven’t been incorporating spin into my workouts all this time BEFORE my trip. Now I’ll have to wait until after I get back on Aug 22 to do more! Hehe
I got an interesting message in my email the other day from a website called Everydayhealth about celebrities with various health conditions who are living their lives to the fullest despite their struggles. I don’t normally share a lot of info on my site other than my own thoughts or things that I have found online on my own that I find interesting, but I did in fact find this post/email interesting. Here is the link-check it out
I’m happy to say that I’m feeling much better where that cold I had previously is concerned. I was kind of nervous as my first thought was…”Watch…they’re going to call me in, like, two days from now and tell me to come in ASAP as a spot opened up and they want to do the transplant ASAP…and I’ll have a cold and will be unable to be transplanted”. Now that I’m better, I’ll have to do my best to avoid getting ill again (as I would do in any other situation anyways!) 🙂 The neti pot really helped. It kept my nasal passages moisturized and it also washed away the extra stuff in my nose. I highly recommend it. It’s just a matter of making sure it is kept clean and that you use distilled water and not tap water.
But that said, I’d say I’m abotu 90% better, and will be 100% in the next day or two.
Hurray for feeling better!
As for feeling smarter, I officially got the email; I have completed all of my requirements to qualify for graduation! Yippie! Oh Lordy has it been a long road! Going to school/college with lupus definitely has not been easy…but I was determined to finish…and HELLO! I did! 😀 I can’t wait to go to convocation…hopefully I’ll be able to go and get my shiny new diploma with a shiny new kidney!! 🙂 Can I get an AMEN for that?? 😉
Hurray for feeling smarter!!
I have a lot to be thankful for as the holiday season draws near.
The other day my transplant coordinator called me and let me know that the group of doctors (nephrologists) got together and finally discussed my case in regards to kidney transplant.
There was a lot for them to talk about and consider, including whether or not it was realistic and safe for me to go through with the transplant since this new smoldering myeloma diagnosis had thrown a wrench into my plans. The doctors required additional information from my oncologist. After much back and forth, they finally got all of the information they required in order to re-visit my case.
I’m happy to say that they have agreed and approved our plans to move forward with the kidney transplant. I’m really happy about that. There has always been SOMETHING that has blocked me from getting this transplant and I’m glad that we are moving in the right direction.
The next move will be for me to have an appointment with the transplant nephrologist as I have not seen him in a couple of years. Yup, I should have had a kidney a number of years ago if not for things continuously throwing these plans off track. Hopefully THIS time will be the right time. I may not get an appointment until January or so, but that’s ok…let’s just get this transplant done!
Another thing that I’m happy about is the fact that this one course that I am taking will soon be finished. I have one more assignment to turn in (which I will begin to work on after I finish this blog post), then I have my final exam in the first few days of January. After that, I’ll finally be finished school. All of the hours of studying for tests, exams, certification exams, doing assignments while juggling to maintain a proper home dialysis schedule…all of that will have finally paid off.
If it hadn’t been for this transplant stuff, I’d have started applying for HR jobs within the company that I work for already. My resume is on point…all I need to do is hit “submit!” But i know the second I do that..I’ll go through all sorts of interview processes and such…and within my first week of work is when the transplant will be scheduled!! I’m trying to do what I feel is the “right” thing and wait before I start applying for HR jobs..but there is also something in me that’s just like…”Live your life!” We’ll see. I feel like I’m getting close to transplant. If any delays should occur for ANY reason, I’m just going to apply for jobs. I thought I was going to receive a transplant years ago. Imagine if I put my life on hold all this time just waiting for it..?
I went to see my rheumatologist today. As per their normal protocol, I had to see the lupus clinic nurse first. She took my blood pressure, asked me a bunch of questions, including questions about my diet. She seemed surprised to learn that I’m not currently being followed by a dietician (no additional appointments needed, thanks). I’m not sure that there is anything substancial that a dietician can tell me now that I haven’t already learned over the last 14 years. I got slightly lectured on diet, cholesterol, etc. It’s always a bit of a pain to be told things you already know…but I guess everyone needs to do their job.
I went on to see the fellow first. She asked me which medications I’m on. Le sigh…the nurse I just spoke to asked me all of that. I told her that the nurse asked me all of that and I gave her all the information. The fellow flipped the page and saw the written notes.
After a few more questions and reviewing my blood results from last week, she explained to me that my c3 c4 values were a bit low *gulp*. They were not totally low, but not within range. An additional blood test was done today to re-check it. I pray that I’m not having a flare. I’ve been flare free for some time and I’d like to keep it that way. Cross your fingers for me.
In the meantime, Dr. Fortin came in soon after and suggested I take percocet for any joint pain since I cannot take naproxen. I should have asked if there is anything more permanent that I can take, as doping myself all the time isn’t necessarily the best option. In the meantime, I’m content to take anything that will help with the pain.
If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’ll have read stories about all my hick ups that occur when it comes to transplant. Let’s revisit/summarize.
1-The first time, we were good and ready to do the transplant…and then I had a lupus flare. Lupus flares push transplants back. This particular flare consisted of a growth on my brain, which resulted in me not being able to walk, move my arms properly, or talk at a normal rate and without drooling.
2-The next time, I was fine, but then my Dad was busy with work for a while, so that put the transplant on hold.
3-After that, both Dad and I were willing and waiting to do the transplant, but Dad was found to be ineligible due to his borderline blood pressure.
4- I was put on the transplant list. My blood type is B-, and I have a lot of antibodies in my blood, so I was forcasted to essentially expect to be on the list for at least 10 years.
5- Here I am after just having finished all of the testing…then I have to get a blood transfusion (which, at the very least, will require me to re-do the cross match with my brother). I have bleeding in my stomach, and my c3 and c4 are not within range.
I spend good amounts of time being “fine”. Then, when the word “transplant” comes up…something always seems to happen. What’s up with that? Am I destined to be on dialysis forever? Does God have another plan for me, or perhaps He simply doesn’t want me to have this surgery? I’m a strong believer in the fact that if something is meant to happen, it will happen, and if things are not supposed to happen, they won’t…but geez..I really want a kidney right about now. I really want to travel and do spur of the moment things without having to think of dialysis. *sigh*