I’m quite glad that the school semester is over…but I feel like I should be doing something! Studying…reading…homework…something!
I don’t think it’ll be until about 3 or so days before I’m supposed to go back to school that I’ll realize that I actually needed that break…and possibly a week more!
I got a letter in the mail the other day from the transplant people. I’m “officially on the transplant list, as of September 1st 2004”. The letter they sent to me also included a form which specifies how am to obtain my free pager. My “we have a kidney for you ” pager. I sent the fax off to Bell Mobility and I expect to get my pager sometime in the next week or so. Sheesh, I hope they don’t give me some huge brick of a pager that will give me back spasms due to its size.
I really want to finish school and get my diploma and such under my belt…and not have to worry about surgery right now. However, I really do want to get this transplant thing done as I find myself spending a lot of time doing dialysis stuff that could be spent doing homework insteady. I’m really torn about that. At least I know that while I’m doing dialysis, I’m not on a whole bunch of medications that I have absolutely no idea how I’ll react to them. I know that I won’t develop diabetes from high steroid doses (this has happened to me twice after being put on high doses of prednisone).
But then…the idea of being able to travel on a whim…the idea that I don’t need to plan things months in advance. If I had the portable machine, I’d certainly feel better about travelling and going places would be a bit easier. However…obviously, nothing beats the real mccoy.
What’s that saying about the devil you know vs. the devil you don’t know?